October Came and Went

Wow I can't believe that October is over already :( Now its November and all that is on my mind is how many more days/weeks I have left until my baby girl is here. In about 37 days/5 weeks my little girl will bless my life by entering this world. Although I feel that she will come a week before her actual due date, I want her to be a healthy. I am so excited to know that she is coming but I am also a little nervous and scared for that day cause it's in the unknown. I don't like the unknown cause I want to know exactly when she will be here but it's out of my hands.

My baby girl is gonna be a little stinker in my opinion cause she hasn't let me sleep for the past few days cause she will not stop MOVING!!!!! Oh well though but as long as she sleeps through the night I will be a happy camper which I doubt very much. It's gonna be a big transition from being a married wife to a new mom; hopefully my head doesn't explode from being overwhelmed. Lucky i have a wonderful husband that supports me as these last weeks are very uncomfortable for me as I can't sleep and I am experiencing bad back pain.

I also hope that I will be able to have Thanksgiving this year cause I love food and I mean that when I say I love food and thank goodness that I don't have to cook anything this year but if my little girl decides to come that day I will not be a happy capmer. I am kidding when I say that cause she will out shine my hunger for food that day but I have told my mom that I will be expecting a plate of food while I am in the hospital :)Reguardless of what happens in these next few weeks I am looking forward to new life changes and no matter what happens I thank God for giving me everything that I have and will recieve in the years to come. I am thankful for my husband for everything he has done for me. For his patience with me during my difficult days and being able to make me smile when I get upset with him. I love you sweetheart.

10 more weeks :)

10 more weeks until my little girl comes into my world. I can't believe that it's already 10 weeks and she is going to be here! Well I am getting everything ready for her arrival just need some essentials like little shoes and hopefully I can find a Christmas dress for her. That's really what I'm looking for cause I love Christmas and I love dresses. My husband and I got her crib yesturday a big thanks for my Dad for buying her crib for us. It's so pretty and we can use it as she gets older which I don't want to think about already. I am just excited for her to be here and I am also excited for my upcoming baby shower which is getting a little stressful but everything will be okay. I know everything will be okay and no matter what happens I will have my family there beside me through thick and thin.

Almost There :)

Well I offical start my last trimester tomorrow which is very exciting. I still can't believe that I'm having a baby in about 84 days. I am a little nervous and excited at the same time. Lately I have been wanting to listen to Christmas music cause she will be here just in time for Christmas. I have been shopping for the perfect Christmas dress for her but so far no luck but there is one out there before. My belly is getting bigger and bigger, I am eating like crazy since I started my pregnancy which has been a lot. I have been craving all kinds of food but nothing weird just Jr. Bacon Chesseburgers from Wendy's those are the bomb!!! Rice Krispy Treats, Sweet and Salty Chewy Peanut Butter Bars and lots and lots of French Fries and Ice Cream. Yummy!!! I'm excited for my baby girl to come and bless my life and my husbands life. I know that she is going to be spoiled by not only me and husband but my parents are already starting to spoil her. I'm every emotion that's in the book but that's okay cause she is going to be the best thing that will ever happen to me in my life.

2010 Has Brought Many Wonders & Changes

Well I decided to update since my last blog was from November of 2009 which was a long time ago. 2010 has brought a lot of new changes in my life, and the past is the past. Nothing but mere memories for me to sometimes look back upon and it's time to move forward with change. I like to start off by saying that I meet the man of my dreams and we got married in February :) My husband Ben is the most amazing man I have ever met but I'm sure that every girl says that about their man. He is the complete opposite from me which is different to me but over the past seven months since we meet it's been a life changing experience. He is a Red Soxs fan which causes some fights during baseball season since I like The New York Yankees. But I love him more than anything.

I am going to be a mom by the end of the year. Yes, Ben and I are having a baby. A baby girl and we are so excited for her to come into our lives and change it more. It was a shock when we found out that I was pregnant because I didn't think that it would happen so soon but I guess you can say that she is a honeymoon baby lol. Although I was happy at first I was also sad too. My mom who I love dearly, wasn't so happy with the fact that I was having a baby. Usually moms are excited, happy, and crying when they have a daughter tell them that they are having a baby; mine wasn't. It was as if I was 16 and having a baby and she was upset over it. After a few months she was happy but it still doesn't feel the same.

Ben and I have been having so much fun decorating her side of the room and buying her the cutest clothes. She actually has more cloths than both of us combined! i guess that's what happens when you have kids, they get more stuff than you and they are much better. Some times I think to myself "Am I ready to be a mom?" Some times I doubt myself about it but my husband tells me that I will be a great mom and that I will be there to support her. It will be a hard process but I just don't want her to go through what I went through growing up. It was rough for me and I want it to be easy for her. I want her to be healthy, for her to have great friends, and be loved by those around her. I don't want her to be used by anyone and have fake friends that stab her in the back. But then again that's hard because everyone has friends that stab them in the back all the time, me the most.

I want her to learn from my mistakes and from her fathers too. I don't want her to be in a family that fights all the time like mine. I want to be there for her and have a great relationship with me so that she can come to me and know that I will listen and say the right thing. It will be a hard process and it may not end up that way but that is what I want for our daughter and for our future children which won't be until she is about five or six. I am anxious and nervous for that day she comes into this world but I know that I will have my husband there to support me when I start freaking out and I know he will be there to help me the first few days and weeks when we bring her home. I love her more than anything already and I love my husband. He is my everything and my world and I can't wait for us to spend the rest of our lives together for many years to come.