Old Becomes New Again

For the past couple of days an old friend from my past have been talking more often than I thought. I haven't spoken to her in years and last saw her the night we graduated from high school. It was interesting because we drifted apart during junior high because of an unlikely friend and I felt that I truly lost my best friend. Last night we finally got together and talked, I mean really talked about the good and the bad times. We came to terms about what happened in junior high because we were immature and reckless kids. I forgave her for what she did to me and she did the same and we are now friends again which I'm happy about because once I'm not friends with someone that's the end of it. I won't ever be friends with that person no matter how much other people try to make me be friends with that particular person, I will never do it. I have too much in my life to handle other people ignorance and stupidity. So we came to terms yesterday and realized that our friendship could have been saved a long time ago but mending it all over again with really special and worth it in the end.

3rd or 5th wheel anyone??

I'm pretty sure that you've bben in those situations where your friends have dates and you end up being the only one that doesn't have a date. Doesn't those moments suck? For me some of them have been great but most of them have sucked tramendously! Especially because it's been with the same person, then that's when things get a little crazy well for me at least. I have one of those friends that I love to death and I love to hang out with her but when we do she ends up bringing her boyfriend with her and she invites another friend who brings her boyfriend so it ends up that I'm the 5th wheel. Now I rather be the 3rd wheel than the 5th wheel because when I'm the 3rd wheel with my friend she actually pays attention to me. Now when it's time for me to be the 5th wheel I feel like I'm not even there at all. It's all because this other friend of her's starts to take her away from me and then between the four of them they share they're little stories, start getting all lovely dovey on me. So I'm thinking to myself "Here we go again! How many times do I have to tell her that this makes me uncomfortable. Doesn't she know how much this make me angry and depressed because of this." As these thoughts race through my head I make a quiet exit to either the kitchen or I go outside and clear my head or cry. When she realizes that I'm upset she asks why? I sometimes want to beat the living tard out of her for asking such a stupid question but then when she sees the reaction that I give her then she gets it.

Now a days she'll do it but not as much anymore since she wants to spend a little more quaility time with her "KK" so to speak. We'll have our girl nights like we use to have when we were in high school which is nice. One time she finally went through what I have gone through with her for the past seven years of our friendship when she was the 3rd wheel for me. I haven't been a 3rd or 5th wheel in a long time and I don't plan on doing it ever since I'm hanging out with single people now than usual and we always go on double dates which are a lot of fun. Sometimes I just wish that she would understand where I come from on this and know that it's not fun being either the 3rd or 5th wheel. If she reads this I love you girly! I always will!